We are in revival this week. As I often do, I listen closely to the beginning of the sermon, but by the end, I am hearing only closely enough to take a few notes. Usually, God and I have these talks. He beat me over the head with a verse the evangelist shared with us.

Luke 14:26 (NLT) “If you want to be my disciple, you must hate everyone else by comparison—your father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters—yes, even your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple."

The part that is most disturbing is the last phrase. "You cannot be my disciple." I often feel dedicated to God and His purposes, but I also often feel more dedicated to my family.

How much of friends are God and I really? How often do we talk? How close are we? How does our closeness compare with my closeness to my wife?

This isn't good. I have decided to hunt down an accountability partner specifically for Bible-readin' time and prayer time. May God have mercy on me, a sinner, as I seek to change the level of ministry by reconnecting with the power source.